Week 49/52 #Weeklies
Mommy, it has been a year without you... and oh, happy first year in heaven!
Yes, everyone came to celebrate your life! And on the last day of your wake, just like how you wanted no drama, we were all laughing as we remembered the funny moments we had with you.
What was amazing was when we finally laid you to rest six feet under, I took this photo when they released the balloons, it was sideways when I took it. When Archie turned the photo around, we saw this!
It looks like the same photo I saw online... Such a beautiful cloud formation! I believe God is welcoming you in His arms, Mommy!
And then as in tradition, we did "pagpag" and decided to go to Palaisdaan for dinner. While we were there, I remembered what you told me two years ago when you said you were dying. I posted the story on my other blog: http://www.gemsdaily.com/guasha-meridian-therapy/
Here was our conversation:
“Mom?” I asked.We were surprised when we finally put the pieces together - everything you said did come true! I just couldn't understand it because you were talking two years ahead.
“Gi, I am dying.” Grace, my mother said on the other line.
“Huh? No!” I retorted.
“Gi, I am dying!” She shouted. Again, I said, “No! Remember, Mommy, I will still go home? We will still see each other. I will just apply for our green card and then as soon as we have it we will see each other again, OK?”
“Gi, we will see each other at the cathedral. As soon as they buried me, you will go back to the USA.” she insisted.
I was confused about what she was saying so I repeated what I just said. I also told her, “Mommy, remember we will still visit the Holy Land, we will go to Boracay…” then she interrupted me, “No! We will eat at Palaisdaan (a restaurant in our province in the Philippines) and then the leftovers will be fed to… (she mentioned all our names who will share the food). She repeated our names over and over…
Right after we laid you to rest, a rainbow also showed up. Ning, one of Batch 2 aspirant saw it. Ning also narrated unusual story about having talked to you in her dreams.
Here's more. One night after Sunday mass, we came home with lights on. The Christmas lights of the small Christmas tree and light at the altar.
A few more times, we would go home with the lights on.
In another instance, I was with Ning and thought about you. She said your mom is always with you. See that rainbow?
That night I looked closely at the photo I'd taken and there was His image again.
I still miss the many times I would give you a call to report the ins and outs of our lives here in the US and to talk about anything under the sun even when you are already out of breath. I miss bugging and pestering you until I get your full attention and you will just smile at my quirkiness.
It's been a year but it didn't feel like it because I know at any time, I can just call you (toll-free) and you will be with me... and in the silence of my heart, I would hear your voice again, encouraging and telling me that it is all God willing and everything will be OK.
It's been a year of a roller-coaster of emotions, but through the "Grace" of God, through you, Mommy Grace, we have started healing and mending our lives knowing that someday, in God's perfect time, we'll be together again.
We love you Mommy, you are in our hearts forever. May you rest in peace with our Lord.