A story of Miracle.
Milagro?
No, hindi ako naniniwala and l even don’t believe in Him.
Yan ang always nasa isip ko last few months dahil sa mga circumstances na nangyayari sa buhay ko, sa family ko. I kept on asking/praying to Him before some very simple things but He didn’t give any. I was doing well as a father but He didn’t even answer my simple prayers for my family. I observed lots of people/ fathers/mothers not doing well but they enjoyed life but ito ako nagsusufer.
So what’s the problem with me? The reason na I decided not to Trust Him. I started not attend holy mass and started not to call Him for months. I feel comfortable without Him but still i have fear na baka mali ako, but mas malaki reasons ko not to trust Him.
But this just takes few months. A circumstance happened that changed everything. This is all about my 2nd baby who will be coming soon, my wife is pregnant. After the results of her ultrasound, may nakitang something wrong sa baby ko, something na dadalhin niya for her whole life, something na hindi mo gusto mangyari sa anak mo, something that will change our lives. When I heard the news from her, kasi late kaming nakapunta sa city with my 1st baby, nawala ako sa sarili, gumuho mundo ko. Hindi ako nagsasalita for how many hours habang kumakain at hanggang umuwi kami. I have to be strong for my family kasi ako ang father.
Pero baliktad, nagwala ako sa buhay ko, I didn’t even care my wife and umabot pa sa punto na I told Him, that I will not introduce my baby to Him, that He is not true. I pray for some simple things hindi niya ibinigay at dinagdagan pa, Of all the babies, bakit aking baby pa diba?
Weeks of depression, ang laging nasa isip ko ay tagay lang talaga kahit walang okasyon. Hindi ko inisip family ko. Weeks of doing same thing, nagtatagay, nagpunta sa side ng family ko para mawala problema but still the pain is there, every night umiiyak.
I told my wife to give me weeks to do these things para mawala ang sakit. But still, ganun pa rin naramdaman ko. Tired of doing same things. Until one night, nagkausap kami ng wife ko nang masinsinan, for how many weeks kami hindi nag.uusap.
Share ko hinanakit ko sa Panginoon. Sa lahat ng ginawa ko sa wife ko, still support pa rin siya sa akin. She told me to be back to Him kasi ganito talaga ang life. Na antig yung puso ko yung sinabi niyang “huwag kang bumitaw kasi nangangailangan pa tayo ng MILAGRO mula sa kanya para sa baby natin”
So yes I tried to renew my faith , We went to the prayer room the next day, sinabi ko lahat ng hinanakit ko sa Kanya and ask na iga.guide kami sa situation namin. Naging routine na naming na pumunta sa prayer room everyday and by that hinay hinay ko nang nararamdaman na gumagaan na akng dibdib ko at namalayan ko na lang na nabalik na ang dating ako.
Shinare ko problem ko sa kapatid Darwin Poster ko para gagaan ang nararamdaman ko. Kinomfort niya ako and he told me na one way to solve my problem is to go with him sa US para doon magteach, kasi I need lots of money talaga for my baby soon.
That was not the first time na ininvite nya ako doon, parang pang20 times na ata. Binaliwala ko kasi, hirap mag apply doon at saka USA lng na man, what is, USA dba?
At the same time kunti lng confidence ko na makawork doon at tsaka main reason ay hindi ko kaya malayo sa family ko at hindi gusto ng wife ko na isa sa amin malayo.
1 week lng pinaka.long na time na nagkalayo kami, kasi hindi talaga kaya. Even days, ang hirap mapalayo, we used to be together always.
But this time, sabi ko sa sarili ko na I will try, para kay baby, dumagdag sa confidence ko na sabi ni Ma’am Gemma sa kuya Darwin ko na need talaga Math teacher kasi lahat math teacher applicants hired lahat.
So sinumulan kong mag.apply, the night na ginawa ko resume at letter ko para masend ko, hindi ako pinapansin ng wife ko, hindi nya ako tinitinggan kasi hindi niya talaga gusto. Hindi ako nakagawa ng husto pero sabi ko sa sarili ko, I have to continue, for my baby, for my family, that time will come maiintindihan niya.
So send ko ka.agad after. Ilang nights hindi kami nag.uusap wife ko, but every time na makita ko response from Teach-USA, it gives me confidence at courage to continue. After so many prayers, finally naging okay din ang wife ko sa naging desisyon ko. Sinusuportahan niya ko sa lahat lahat ng proseso sa pag apply ko.
I started the application May 31, 2019.
Every requirements need to be prepared, I need to be absent also kasi I need to go to the city para magprepare lahat. Mga 2 or 3 days absent every week kasi need e-expedite papers ko.
I asked guidance from Him, I told Him to help me kasi this is the only way I can help my baby, “You gave me this situation, please help me and guide me in this”. Everyday ako pumunta sa prayer room, at nag.balik na mag.attend ng holy mass at everytime magpunta ng city para process some papers/docus, dadaan sa 3 big churches sa Cebu to ask his guidance.
Dito naging habit ko na magpray sa kanya, parang hindi kompleto araw ko if hindi makapag.usap sa kanya. I really feel Him kasi smooth lahat ng preparations ko, from documents/papers na iprepare from different offices, demo, collaborations at iba pa. Sleepless nights pero hindi ko feel ang pagod, kasi palagi ko inisip my “biggest why”.
After the preparations, I started the online application, sleepless nights but still laban lang. Until Ma’am Gemma added me in a group sa messenger for a possible interview, then hours later, Ma’am Gemma said ‘’prepare for an interview sa July 1, 2019’’. Wooh, a chance that will give me opportunity to get hired and probably achieve my biggest reason why I apply.
I prepare myself for interview, still ang hirap kasi 1 month walang tulog, may trabaho sa morning or hindi may lakad sa city at sa gabi need to prepare. Parang nafeel ko na hindi ko na kaya kasi grabi stress, emotional, mental at body stress nandoon lahat. But still continue because I felt His guidance talaga.
So, tanong ko ulit.
Milagro?
Yes totoo, Miracles happen everyday. We just dont see it beacuse we didn’t believe in it.
July 1, 2019. The day of my interview, I saw lots of “7” going to city kasi mag.hohotel ako for my interview. Even sa change sa money ko nung nagbreakfast ako, is 7. Nagcheck in ako sa hotel, sa 7th floor ako inilagay, room #710. Sa group chat sa aspirant may nabasa ako 7, sabi doon something lucky 7. My wife told me to pray 7 our fathers, 7 Hail Mary at 7 Glory Be to ask the Holy Spirit to be with me, first time ko alam yon kasi hindi ko talaga hilig magpray before. July is 7th month. These scenarios nag.add ng courage at confidence ko. Natapos ang interview, not confident na mahire kasi parang nakulangan ako.
July 2, 2019. The day before I went to sleep, I read an FB post, “someone will call you tonight to give you a goodnews.” I smiled and went to sleep. (insert ko lng everyday nagpray na ako with my family, every day palagi pumupunta sa prayer room, ganda ng feeling, worries at hinanakit mo mawawala)
July 3, 2019. At 3am, Darwin called via messenger. He told me the good news. With His power, I was hired in Santa Fe Public Schools. You know the name of the school? “MILAGRO Middle School”.
Amazing dba? May 31, 2019, I started my application, July 3, 2019 hired ako. Kaya nga sabi sa post ni Maam Gemma sa group, “Amazing, Congratulations Dariel Layaguin Poster”.
Until, August 8, 2019. Schedule ng interview sa embassy ko.
I saw lots of 8 dito from my travel, hindi ko alam bakit. Sabi ni Darwin, 8 is a good number. August is 8th month, 8th day of August. Nagcheck.in ako sa hotel, 8th floor ako inilagay na na man. Room #810. 8am sched ko sa embassy. These scenarios nag.add ng courage at confidence ko.
And With his power again, Easy and Approved.
I think 7 and 8 are not my lucky numbers. These are just His ways to boost my confidence and courage to help me achieve those things.
I am sharing this story because I want to testify the that SOMETIMES GOD BREAKS OUR HEART TO SAVE OUR SOUL, THAT THE PAIN WE FELT BEFORE OR RIGHT NOW WILL BE OUR GREATEST TESTIMONY SOMEDAY THAT HE WILL GIVE YOU MORE THAN WHAT YOU PRAY FOR. He is real, He is amazingly real and please believe in miracles because Miracles happen everyday.
Every father has his own way of sacrificing just for his family. Unfortunately this is my way, AWAY from them. But my family is my life.
This is just the first step to achieve my goal but I know He will guide me. He is my only weapon to this new journey, my only way to live life, my only way to protect my family. I can’t afford to lose Him again.
Thanks to the teachers, the aspirants and the certified. Special thanks to Teach-USA, and to my supportive brother Darwin. Thanks to the Teach-USA family which is one of His way to save myself and save my family.
Mahirap ang pagdadaan natin dito, Pray natin na Guide Niya tayo to this journey.
God Bless po sa lahat!
Written by: Dariel
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See Dariel's PART 2 story here: https://www.pinoyteacherstories.com/2024/09/dariels-miracles-part-2.html
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